Thursday May 8 2008

Moonlight Magic

12x12 Oil on Canvas

by Lynn Thomas

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Yesterday afternoon shortly before we left to drive in to Pinedale to get the chemo pump taken off at the clinic, it started a regular blizzard. All we had before that was a few misty sprinkles. Thankfully, after we got a ways down the road, all that quit and it got brighter and the temperature went up about 15 degrees by the time we got to town. They had much more moisture through the day than we did, puddles everywhere. Got the pump off and was good to go. We gassed up the SUV, bought a few groceries, and walked the dogs. We went over to Gina and Bob's for dinner and sure enjoyed both the food and the good company. It was great to be with them again, and also to see Garfield. Thank you guys for a nice evening out.

Today Joe has gone in to Pinedale to get his hair cut and probably lunch. I just want to go back to bed, but am not giving in yet. Sylvia called me from New York this morning and we had such a nice visit. They have a place here and come out to Sublette Co. in the summer. It will be good to see them again in August.

Not even sure I should write about this..... Have hardly talked about it to many people yet, although have been aware for some time that my illness is eventually going to affect our dogs. So when Joe brought up his thoughts about this the other day and asked me if we should or could find Raven a new home when that time comes, we needed to make those decisions. So now she has been offered a home with Betty or Beverly. It is comforting to know she will have a good and loving place, although she has never known anything but the ranch and being free. Since Sparky is almost 13, takes several medicines and is getting quite elderly and arthritic now, it would probably be more kind to have him put to sleep when the time comes than to make him go through such a big change. So ..... the other day I told Judi that Sparky and I are going to heaven together. She thought I meant I wanted him to be cremated with me. I instantly liked the idea although I had never thought of that possibility. It took us a few minutes to get on the same page with our thoughts. When I finally figured out what she was talking about we had another boistrous laugh. I still laugh thinking about getting Sparky and me cremated together so our ashes can be sprinkled together. With my twisted sense of humor, I want to ask the funeral director (as a joke) if that is possible.

At KMart Monday I bought a new drawer organizer for the knife drawer, which has always been SUCH a mess. It's much better now that like things are confined together. A nice knife block is on my list for when I go to a kitchen store.

The article Helena wrote about me came out in last weeks Pinedale Roundup. Sorry that this one isn't on line so you could see it. It's one of the nicest things ever written about me. She was so good to send me extra articles and 5x7 pictures enough to send to the girls, a special note, and the recipe of the wonderful chocolate ice box dessert she brought that day. I'll make it soon. The crust is divine.

Here's a little more information for those, including me, who have continued to be confused about my tumor marker reading being so great, yet the liver carcinoma so bad. The Tumor Marker is a protein, and in some people it will show high. If the tumor marker is high, it's definitely cancer. But in some people it will be normal or low and they still have cancer. So for some people the "tumor marker" doesn't tell anything. And it seems I'm one of those.

"The artist is not a person endowed with free will who seeks his own ends, but one who allows art to realize its purposes through him." Carl Jung